Then – January 4, 1998
Today I got the delivery which I was supposed to receive yesterday. I received 20 roses for 20 days until he and I see each other. What a very sweet gesture. They are absolutely beautiful. I feel a bit melancholy today. I’m not sure why. Tomorrow I give notice at work. I feel a bit of trepidation. This is such a huge change in my life. I’m going to get some sleep. Hopefully I’ll feel better tomorrow. I am really worried about moving the cat. I hope I’m doing the right thing.
2012 was such an emotional year. I am glad to put it behind me, but I don’t want to forget all that has happened and how I got to this point. We just returned from our annual winter holiday. We all enjoyed our trip to the mountains to ski. There was no way I could face Grand Cayman after last year. This year there were no big discussions about our marriage. Just a family trying to hold it together. I cannot foresee what 2013 will bring, but I have hope. So many families are being broken up by divorce – and not without effort being put into sustaining them. At what point do you decide it’s over? How do you bring yourself to tell your children? I don’t want this to be my family. I’m holding on. I hope I’m doing the right thing.