Then – April 5, 1998 – Actually April 6th 1am.
It is great not to have my time here be temporary. I’m here for good – for now. We spent time with friends – another couple. They really are pretty fun. I’m sure I’ll like them better once I get to know them.
I feel like I’m getting stuff done as I need to. I want to stay organized and focused and me. I want to feel that I am still in control of my life – even though I gave it all up. Once I get a job, I’ll feel much better.
My cat and I spent some quality time together today. I’m concerned however as she seems to be developing a cough. Let’s hope it’s only a cold.
Tonight we saw Dangerous Beauty. I thought the film was really well done. He over analyzed it. He could have gotten great sex out of it, but no – instead he picked the movie apart and upset me. Granted it was drawn out, but geez – let’s just relax for a minute and not take ourselves so seriously!
Now – I look at the time (1am) when I wrote this and am sure that I was upset by his behavior after the movie. I can remember it. I couldn’t sleep. I didn’t come out and write about it too negatively. I think I was still trying to wish it away and keep some perspective. Maybe I wasn’t taking the signs seriously enough.